My Migraine Life

So here we are about to enter a new year and boy has the last one been quite a trying one. I can honestly say that I don’t know that I will be sad to see this one go and a new one come. As time goes by and this illness persists it seems that each New Years Eve is not a sad event but a welcomed one. As I look back on this past year I remember it as one of heart ache, loss, illness for both Mark and myself and strife. I see it as one for the the record books and best left there. Now don’t get me wrong, of course as a mother there are always happy moments too and I look forward to many more with them. My new years resolution is to take happiness in the small things, I am going to try a new quilting adventure, and keep working on getting the headaches under control. I hope and pray all the best for all of you and your loved ones for this up and coming new year.

So I have had a bit of bad luck as of late. As you can see from my last post I had all of my last posts and comments deleted while I had a bad night. Then my laptop died and I was unable to do anything until now. I finally have a new laptop and am back up and running. OH happy day!!! The holidays have been hard and that has a lot to do with the weather and the stress of this time of year. We have had massive amounts of snow like no other year that I can remember and then it gets warm and we have thunderstorms. It has just been nuts and I feel that I just can’t get a break. Keeping on the diet has been hard too. My appetite is down as I have been increasing the topamax every week as well as the headaches are here with a vengeance.  But I keep trying anyways to stay on track the best I can. I have increased my vitamin D intake to 3000 I.U. this month and am up to a 100mcg fentanyl patch. Together it is all shortening the duration of the headaches as well as the intensity so that is a major plus. I have hope that with the continual increase of topamax and staying with the things will either stay the same or get better. I hope that you and your loved ones had a great holiday and that the upcoming New Year will be one of joy and miracles for all of us.

So, I have been up all night with a headache and that is not the best time to be playing with my website I guess. I have accidentally deleted all of my past posts and comments. I have to send out a huge apology to all of my friends and family who have logged on and read and/or posted comments on this site as a sign of support. Thank you again. As I posted previously today, I found a new site called HealingWell.com that has a good migraine forum. I have posted to a few people there and hope that I was able to be of help to them as others on the site gave me hope. I have been dealing with this illness for what I thought was only seven years but, as I laid here tonight in pain, it occurred to me that it has been more like eight now. Wow, how the time does go by when we are not having any fun;) Oh, well what can you do but just keep plugging along and remember that God promises to give us the Son when He sends us any rain. He is still the God of the rainbow and we have to just have faith that “all will work to the good of those who love him.”  I may not understand right now why I have to suffer such constant pain but I do believe he has a purpose I just have to wait for his guidance to show me the answer and have faith that he will lead the way. Stay strong my friends and together with His help, we will go far.  I have sent a cry for help to my brother to see if the lost material can be found, if not, I will start re-posting info about snacks and other helpful tips for diet friends here on the site. Again sorry about the major Opps and I hope to never make that error again. Talk to you all soon.